Missing Denzel

1. Shortly before dinner our upstairs neighbor had their music to the point we could here it.  It got me thinking of Denzel and how he liked to play his music loud especially when working on his car.  Which in turn got me thinking of what it's going to be like when Ben  is a teenager.  I got thinking of how I wish that Denzel was still here so that when I am raising a teenage boy that I would be able to call Denzel and ask him for insights and stuff.  Haha.  I know Denzel will still have his brotherly as well as uncle insights and inputs that he's had the past 3 1/2 years but sometimes it's just not the same as being able to call him up and say "hey I miss you! What are you up to?  How do I do this? ". Yes I would love to have 4 years ago back and being able to talk to him on the phone. But I am grateful for the atonement and for all that it provides.  For the opportunities it allows for Denzel to still "show up" and be his loving brother and uncle self (teaching Angela to cracking eggs - at least he taught Angela to throw them away after cracking them).  He will sometimes 'use me' as a mouth piece to help him get a message across that might not otherwise be heard.  Yes it coming up on four years since Denzel passed away but grateful for all the other things I've been taught.